It was a long, angst filled weekend. I caught a couple of breaks through the kindness of friends, but the rest of the time was pretty taxing.
Oh, I didn’t really do anything. That’s not the kind of “taxing” I mean. I was a lazy slug around the house all weekend. The problem was that my mind has commenced what I expect to be a month long process of beating myself up over the upcoming workplace transition. I’m seeing all the worst case scenarios played out in every variation imaginable. Even when my mind is more positive I’m obsessing over every detail of the transition plan. It intrudes into my thoughts all day long, and has even invaded my dreams.
On top of that I went to bed with a migraine and when I woke up it had gotten worse.
I’m going to try to post some more analytical pieces this week, partly to engage my mind in something other than self-doubt. In between that and throwing myself into my work, I’m going dry (too tempting to handle my stress with the bottle).
It’s going to be a rough few weeks, but I’ve overcome worse to get where I am now. I’ll make it through. Apologies in advance for the excessive crankiness though.